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poem??:: I want my art to hit me in the chest to resurristate and wind I want my art  i want my life. I want existence. I want rabid ? conversations I want shit talking I want riots  exhibition went to see everything being clinical. clinic world. doesn't even feel industrial anymore... ? clean offices, pret, clean,  naked attraction room of ones own. art to be judgemental, opinionated, bold, melodramatic, theatrical, 

  interesting vid:  https://www.youtube.com/watch? v=5ktBxktH04A on beethoven n tempo Again - thinking about russian silences in chekhov plays. lol  n minimal music. john cage.smthn about the dark n sitting with ur thoughts innit poetic idleness. Slow summer notes i made. idle  cars also idle? intention n patience the sea gull. notes 4 actors. early play of his so he'd not developed all his chekhov characteristics. 'chekhov sees his characters as inseperable from the world around them. "nature, on her part," he says in one of his letters, "becomes animated if you are not squeamish about employing comparisons her phenomena with ordinary human activities"' . Good actors are good listeners. heard ppl say that a lot Thinking from reading the sea gull and present laughter about what makes a play good? bc its only dialogue n feel u can't put much useful stuff in it ( like in a script) but I think with a play you can add some stage directions but not ...

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZVkuVOH0MhQ the intonation !!!!!!!! i feel i tend to hate spoken poetry bc of spoken word, but i think i di like it but like it in a certain way. The tone of voice in this and bob dylan n patti smith. Very Side eyes vibes. power tone. preach, prayer. 

 went 2 waterstones n there werre loads of art books. this one was very slay

Recently read a room of ones own by virginia woolf and went to town on the annotations. Use of story. authorial presence n referencing the dots. putting her notes in ! .

I wrote a poem to submit to an online publication on the theme of favourite space/place n got rejected and it gave me some thoughts. I was kind of expecting this as I didn't think the poem even fit the brief enough/was probably not something they were looking fro, but submitted it anyway. I think I have this problem a lot of not fitting into boxes or briefs to submit stuff to which Im not mad about, but just thought it was interesting, especially when Ive been thinking a lot about the industries/independent/the media n technology aspect of industries. I remember after graduation jeremiah said smthn about difference between checking boxes n I said story of my life as a kind of joke but it kind of isnt now i am realising lmao. Also remembered doing Creative Writing at AS level and how the exam was set up was if you wrote something simple with the brief you were given you'd get a C/average kinda grade, but then if you wanted to get a better grade you had to write something more in...

 Got sum books from the library agggggggesss ago and thought i should prob return it. but took pics of important pgs n notes I had, as it gave me a couple visual ideas for my deld project. Gerhard Richter: Cecil Breton.