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 feel just passively going thru stuff, esp since after the panny demic. Started a substack. THink im going to put lil essays on there and also monthly updates (which ive put thoughts on below), basically just like on here but more coherently and not dump-like. Follow me!!! its free and u basically just put ur email n can subscribe to people (mines free) and u get their posts sent straight to your email! https://naturalenquiry.substack.com/ Want to pay attention to what im making and what im consuming. might do monthly updates on here or on substack or both? kinda like youtubers used to do. Eg: podcast, book, films paintings ive done or been working on? east of eden signposts --- signposting my life with art? think ill set a timer/specific time to write it at the end of each month or so, so can get it over with and not spend too much time on it/procrastinate it.

Passion I am Hot and Bothered with it Burning, boiling and rolling in it disco ball eyed and engrossed by it written like a will, then die by it live half a life then get born with it Beyond it or beneath it, I am in it  -- ripening smell of storm we tumble down a growing hill seering sights killing lights into the tunnel of devices. the driver smites the passenger despite the sights they hold no hopes for saviour, emerging into completed and unresolved misery Then dawn hits, and the night was mist ladderless and for a no win victory.

 On new years eve, i suddenly began writing and i couldnt really stop was very fun. these r the pages . other notings: making art includes other ppl.!!! :/all my ppl r spread about n its difficult to find those Special ones u knooo. i said in other post how i like taking documentational photog n thats hard when theres nothing happenin also music wanna do more collaborative shit n make a band maybe bc i think that would help develop guitar playin n general understanding of song structures. 'jamming' h8 that word but u kno what i mean.