art fulfillment etc

think i read smthn about burnout ages ago n how when the effort/reward for something isnt well balanced it can lead to burnout..
I think sometimes i can from feeling really good about making stuff and then when i finish i dont know what to do with it, or where to get feedback or thoughts. For example ive been thinking about doing some art magazine bits or an open mic but there are a few bits im unsure on and cant wrap my head around, but idk how to ask ppl ik for help bc i cant even explain it hahahaha

communities n art/
dont miss uni tbf bc everythin is all the same, life is life, but i do miss the community aspect (even tho i wasnt/arent that sociable) and also the access to stuff. The things i would do to use a c41 machine, u dont wanna even know !! (im kidding..)

Lately finished an essay n idk what the fuck to do with it ! want feedback but idk where to get it from,, might ask desiree but some more people would be sweet tbf

Social media i think is going down the pisser, i think i relied on it to keep up with people but either i dont see what those people post anymore n vice versa or i thnik also a lot of people dont use it as much anymore...?

Need to eat more art for sure for sure.. Ik i keep saying that but i think art helps with loads of stuff.. 
First of all wanna get off social media. dont wanna measure myself by typical standards of success, etc. and its becoming all sludged up with content. I dont wanna get off social media fully bc i do get some decent stuff n inspiration from there.
Want to read more and watch more films. 
time just feels so vast atm esp bc ive been unemployed for so long, and i think if i can create little eras n experiences for myself itll help. Also learning stuff is fun make brain feel good u kno..

Currently writing the evaluation post for the wales pics and Im finding it difficult to write full sentences and i think its because i write so often in note form, a full sentence can be quite intimidating!!! sounds silly.. But wanna get my reading n writing comprehension goin smoother Hopefully, bc sometimes mentally my brain just doesnt work n thats ok, but would l o v e to get into some sort of habit of just being..........

To Conclude... I reeallly want to consume more art n make more stuff... Think making stuff is going ok, been painting a lot lately, and started writing a lot more which i think will be a good replacement til i get a job and can get adobe again n start making for vid n sound work.. However really wanna consume more stuff n i hope i can actually do this n not forget about it lol. Currently reading war and peace and want to engage and think about what im reading/watching as im going and after ive finished with it, so i can actually get somethin from it as sometimes its easy to passively read stuff, for example, and then finish a book and forget everything about it