natural enquiryyyy???

 ive had the idea of 'natural enquiry' in my mind for a while. maybe since 2nd year, and i still cant figure out what it is, or what i want it to be...

I know its some sort of philosophy, maybe distribution kind of thing, possibly partly inspired by the bloomsbury group, but i just dont know what i want to do with it. 

I have had some ideas to make it into a sort of distibution-y record label type thing, however Capitalism is a no from me, but it would be cool if i could get a collection of artists to work on it with me, but how am i supposed to do that, when i don't really know what 'natural enquiry' is?

I have a few values i could set it around, like growing as a person, curiosity, being queer and just pro diversity in general, but also have some ideas for 'merch', as for lack of a better word, like t shirts, etc. and as much as id mayb like to have different artists sell stuff on there i feel like that is also counterproductive. 

could push diverse artists/help them but the whole idea of success feels backwards to me as a miNoRitY. like how can we feel good about 'succeeding' in a world that wasn't made for us, and still profits the top white str8 cis men?
im still trying to come up with a solidity to the idea of a different kind of success, however the one we are taught already has a strong physical meaning as we can pysically show out success with things like money and materialism, which will always feel, at least at first, more validation to us as not only are we constantly taught this, but as humans we have a sense of object permanence and feel attached to personal things with capitalism or not.

Also, theres some ideas of breaking down art and how we view and consume it, but i feel that cant go on for so long without becoming its own worse enemy in a way??? 

also with the distribution kinda thing, i think its interesting to make books/magazines by hand as it quite easy, however for example dvds etc or smthn that is also kind of backwards bc theres still an element of excessive-ness  and waste of plastic etc?? 

i have thought about writing some kind of manifesto, however that not only seems kind of arrogant, but is extremely difficult with the fact that i dont really know what this all is.

even using the internet to try make it more accessible is still SILLy bc the internet is not free, unfortunately, and most sites are run by shit companies. 

Maybe ill just make a yt channel or smthn who knows
also was thinkig about making a scent/perfume but who fukin knows u kno

i think i just want it to encompass a sense of freedom , but i dont think that really exists